Kiss Me If You Can [NOVEL] - Chapter 32

“…”

A heavy silence followed. No one opened his mouth. Grayson quickly entered the counseling room and quietly closed the door and turned around. He alternated between Josh’s hardened face and Steward, and soon laughed as usual. 

“It’s disappointing, Steward. I didn’t know you would betray trust so easily.”

Raising his hand over his chest as if he was the protagonist of a tragedy and saying, “Ah!” Josh didn’t say anything at his appearance, even interjecting an exclamation. It was Steward who opened his mouth. 

“I’m sorry, I stopped making mistakes.”

“Are you really sorry?”

Steward replied naturally to Grayson, who asked with his eyes narrow. 

“Of course. I am reflecting on it.”

He added, seemingly on purpose. 

“Please do not cancel my license.”

Grayson stared at Steward who added “please” as if begging earnestly. There was a heavy silence. What is that unknown man thinking now? Josh watched with anxiety.

Grayson, looking at Steward for a moment, soon took a step and sat down on the couch fluttering. 

“Well, it’s not a big deal. It’s something you’ll know someday anyway. Where is Chase? Did you come alone? I haven’t seen the car.”

Josh replied bluntly to Grayson looking back. 

“I just came to get the medicine instead. Mr. Miller is filming.”

“Oh really?”

Just in time, the staff opened the door and put the snacks down on the table.

“Thank you, Julie.”

Grayson greeted sweetly, picked up the chocolate and unwrapped it when she left. Without hesitation, he threw the contents into his mouth and suddenly looked disappointed. 

“This is not it.”

What do you mean? As Josh looked puzzled, Steward opened his mouth. 

“All of the medicines were taken by the police. I’m sorry.”

Josh blinked out of his mind at the moment. You were looking for something with the medicine in it? Besides, what else is Steward, is this something you’re sorry for? Josh was embarrassed, but Grayson frowned and protested. 

“I’ve got some left over. I’m disappointed, Steward.”

“I’m sorry. Instead, we’ll look for the same product when we’re done analyzing the drug.” 

“You have to do that.”

After Grayson was pledged, he again took the chocolate in his hand. As he looked at it with a face full of regret, he unpacked it. 

It doesn’t matter.

Josh opened his mouth hastily. 

“Was it you who actually drugged Mr. Miller?”

Grayson took out the new chocolate and glanced at him. Steward shrugged and said nothing. Grayson slowly unwrapped and threw the black mass into his mouth lightly. The soft pieces crumbled and slowly melted down. Slowly moving his cheeks, he opened his mouth. 

“What are you going to do for me if I tell you?”

“I won’t hit you.”

“Is that all?”

Grayson burst into laughter. Even though he’s not in a situation to laugh at all, does this guy think he’s joking? Josh gave him a fist. When he thought that he should let him know he was serious right away, Grayson opened his mouth with a voice that still laughed. 

“I don’t like being beaten, so I’ll have to talk to you…. Well, I was thinking of talking about it anyway.”

He glanced at Steward and shrugged. 

“Because secrets are not forever.”

Steward just smiled briefly. Josh turned his gaze from Steward to Grayson. With his arm on the back of the sofa, Grayson pulled out a cigarette and bit it on his lips. 

“When his first rut came, Chase had no partner. He was a shy adolescent boy.”

It was an unbelievable expression for anyone who knows the man now. ‘Shy’,’adolescent’,’boy’. Grayson sighed and opened his mouth to Josh, who was waiting silently.

“I took Alex in a hurry, but it wasn’t very useful. Even if Chase couldn’t erect and just fainted, I had no choice but to take him with an injection. After opening his eyes, he couldn’t remember, so I just said…”

“…What?”

Josh blindly blinked. Lately, his words flowed into my head.

“Then, it’s really not that, you’re saying you fool him? He made him think he was with a dog while he was in rut?”

Grayson grumbled like an excuse. 

“What do I do, if I don’t do that, I don’t think about sucking up the lungs. If the pheromones keep accumulating, the brain melts, it’s crazy.”

“But, that doesn’t mean you threatened him like that…? He said he didn’t like it, but you took him to the orgy party!”

Josh couldn’t forget that Chase had a seizure the night he was dragged away and returned. Does this man know that his brother is so distressed?

But Grayson’s words were even more surprising. 

“If he don’t, I can’t do anything”

“….What?”

Josh questioned his ears. What else is he talking about? Grayson said calmly to Josh, blinking his eyes blankly.

“He can’t help but complain that he doesn’t like to do dogs, but in the end he doesn’t try to do anything with anyone, and then the pheromone builds up and he goes out of his mind, that guy. So I have no choice but to get an injection and get him out. I often think that he’s been throwing himself down like trash every time, but….”

Actually, the opposite was true. Josh’s face turned pale to the truth he hadn’t thought of. Grayson smiled bitterly when he saw his stupid expression. 

“If I don’t do that, he won’t be able to even give an injection. What if he doesn’t like that? If he doesn’t like that, can he date someone? I don’t like that, Josh, my brother. He hasn’t dated anyone until now. I can’t believe it. Can’t you believe it? But it’s true.”

Grayson laid out quickly as if complaining, then immediately shrugged and shook his head. 

“He doesn’t like having sex alone, he doesn’t like dating someone for that purpose. That’s why he can’t sleep with anyone when he’s conscious. It’s very difficult to get pregnant because he can’t control his ejaculation. The only thing left is injections. Check it out, he says he’ll only get it out with an injection for the rest of his life?”

Josh stopped listening. His mind was tangled all over the unexpected truth, so he couldn’t think of it properly. Grayson continued to speak. 

“If he accepts reality someday, he will be able to naturally remove pheromones like other dominant alphas. If he keeps doing this, he really has to put in a dog. Of course, that’s the last option, but…. Doing it with dogs is not good for hygiene….”

He said, “Right?” Asked and smiled. Josh gave a fist blow harder in the face of Grayson instead of answering.

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Crazy bastards. 

Josh grinds it and steps on the accelerator. The speedometer went over, but he still didn’t feel relieved. 

Crazy bastard, could he do that and laugh about it?

The more he thought about it, the more angry he was. It would have made him half-ass. It would have been even worse if Steward hadn’t intervened late and forced Josh to go away. What was even more surprising was the fact that Grayson had rather provoked Josh in the meantime.

<Why are you mad?>

He didn’t know if he was asking because he didn’t know, or if he was concerned about scratching Josh, but what is certain is that he laughed at Josh with a bloody face. How can he laugh in that situation? Josh, while horrified, was completely tired of him.

Chase.

The more he thought about it, the more he felt sad and upset. He couldn’t believe that he had been suffering the pain since the manifestation. Go ahead and tell me. Years never did that, you were innocent, and even after you lost consciousness, you never had a relationship with someone forcibly. Then. Josh remembered that far, and stopped stepping on the brakes. With a sharp sound, the tires scratched the road and slipped. Sitting in the car barely stopped, he blindly blinked.

Are you saying that I’m the only one sleeping with Chase? 

Josh realized that he hadn’t even thought about it and opened his eyes wide. No way, he hastily denied it, but if Grayson is right, that’s also true. 

Chase has never had sex. The accumulated pheromone was always removed only by injection. 

“Then, ridiculous …”

Josh muttered absently and stumbled captivated, but it was the truth.

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Ahead of schedule when he returned to the set. It was much later. Josh took a deep breath and got out of the rear car.

He was worried about what to say to Chase while walking towards the hostel.

He’ll have to reassure him, And…

And…

His head didn’t turn anymore, he couldn’t even know with what expression to face Chase.

He was the only partener of Chase.

His mind was complicated all the time when he learned that he had judged that he was a man who wore and resembled Chase.

Of course, does it make sense that a man who is well over twenty is a virgin?

But for Chase, that made sense. It was the trauma that occurred when he first suffered RUT, so he couldn’t have normal sex. It was understandable up to there, but he couldn’t believe this because he had never dated someone. 

Chase Miller is one of the most beautiful men in the world that everyone recognizes. 

He has all the money, fame, and appearance, and this makes sense. There were many people who would say it didn’t matter to the extent that there was a defect in character. This really makes no sense. Josh stopped trying to deny it by shaking his head. 

Come to think of it. 

He recalled Chase’s particularly frequent blushing face and a hurried reaction to a kiss. Sometimes he was especially embarrassed. How was it the first time I gave him a fellatio? Wasn’t he too excited? No, every time he was so excited. Besides, he does it several times a night.

It was the first time he knew sex.

After thinking that far, Josh could no longer deny the reality.

This is all because of Grayson Miller.

Josh turned his anger to the other side and repeatedly clenched and unfolded his fists. He felt a sensation of hurting his joints by beating Grayson, but he ignored them. Let’s think about what kind of face to look after we meet. First of all, seeing Chase was first.

He tried to keep his footsteps on his way to the trailer, but suddenly his cell phone rings. 

“Yes, Mark?”

As he kept walking and answering, an anxious voice came out from the other side. 

[Josh, where are you now? Are you almost there?] 

“Yes, I’m on the way to C’s trailer, but what’s going on?”

[Ah, good. Come on, it’s an emergency. Everyone is gathered here.]

“Is it an emergency? Are you looking at any something wrong to C? “

Mark said with an anxious voice:

[The C became K.]

 Chase kidnapping.

Josh stopped. He couldn’t believe what he just heard.

“What?”

Remembering the code, Josh thought, what do you mean Chase has been kidnapped?