Kiss Me If You Can [NOVEL] - Chapter 10

The mansion was filled with an unpleasant energy. According to Seth, Chase threw down a chair as soon as he heard that Grayson had arrived. Fortunately, he didn’t throw it at Seth. As he led Grayson into the living room, Josh was curious about Chase’s reaction, and since he had heard from Seth, he was probably in a worse mood at this point.

Knok,knok.

Josh knocked softly, and then the living room door opened.

The sweet aroma hit Josh immediately. For a moment, his mind went blank, but thankfully he came to his senses quickly. When he loudly chewed the melting caramel in his mouth, his mind cleared. Chase was sitting on the couch waiting for Grayson. The light pink shirt had a pair of unbuttoned buttons and he was wearing white cotton pants underneath, he wore black glasses similar to what Grayson had before he came in, but the difference is that he was wearing them in the open air and Chase is in a place closed. Without knowing it, he held back his sigh of admiration.

“How long has it been, Chase! My dear brother.”

Grayson with open arms tried to hug him. Of course Chase didn’t allow it.

“Keep your hands away.”

Grayson stepped forward and Chase immediately kicked him in the stomach, he must have kicked as hard as he could, but all he got was a slight stumble from Grayson.

Josh widened his eyes at the situation, Chase is not usually the owner of great strength, but it was surprising that he only managed to trip Grayson.

Is this man’s stamina good or has Chase weakened?

But Grayson didn’t stop there when he appeared to pull away, suddenly reaching out and grabbing for Chase’s sunglasses. There was no time to stop him. Chase also didn’t have time to avoid his hands and his face was revealed in the bright sunlight. Soon after, Grayson wrapped his hands around Chase’s cheeks and screamed so loud.

“Oh God! What happened to my little brother in the face ?!”

Josh froze in place. Chase also stiffened.

In the eerie silence, only Grayson screamed miserably like the protagonist of a tragedy.

“He had prophesied that this day would one day come. Oh it’s over! My brother’s career is over.”

“Damn, I’m going to get over whoever it is!”

Chase screamed and threw a punch, sadly Grayson jerked and narrowly dodged.

“I taught you to look at your opponent without problems. You only have your face. How do you memorize the script when you have such a bad head?”

“I’ll kill you…!”

Chase got up from the couch and struck again. Josh thought for a moment that he should stop him. If Chase gets hit he will intervene.

Grayson whispered something to Chase as he avoided getting hit by his fists again.

“I told you to live a decent life, Chase. Or would you like to be taken home again?” He asked in a voice as sweet as his pheromone.

The low, deep voice was as soft as a caress in the ear. But Chase’s face turned colder than ever after hearing that. Josh had never seen anyone with that expression on his face.

A corpse would have a better complexion than that.

With a white face as if he had seen a ghost, Josh looked at Chase who seemed unable to breathe, Grayson grinning as widely as he did the first time.

“Good. You are not a fool my brother.”

If Josh hadn’t seen that scene, he would have thought he was a very nice brother, but to Josh, the man had never felt so terrifying as he did now. He was laughing so calmly after Chase got so frozen. He thought that the man could simply kill anyone, there was no need to bother, a few words were enough. Josh felt a chill up his spine. It had been less than an hour since he met him, and he felt he had seen the naked face of a man hiding it under a mask.

Grayson turned his head toward a motionless Josh. The sudden eye contact surprised him. He said smiling, just like before:

“Excuse us for a moment? We have a family talk … “And he looked at Chase” … Now that Chase is ready to listen.”

Grayson put his hand on Chase’s shoulder.

Then something surprising happened. Chase sat silently on the couch, Josh blinked in surprise. Such a demure attitude, like a trained dog. And that was the most confusing expression Josh had ever seen from Chase Miller.

There was silence again. Grayson sat across from Chase and looked at Josh.

What do you do? Josh stood there for a moment, staring at Chase. Somehow he thought he shouldn’t leave him. Can I really go out? Inadvertently, he saw Pete reflected in Chase’s face.

On one occasion Josh lost Pete in the park. It was less than 10 minutes, but he had a terrible fear that seemed to him to have fallen into hell. When he got back on the road, screaming Pete’s name like crazy, he managed to luckily find Pete standing there, held him in his arms again, almost cried with indescribable relief. Of course, if he held Chase like Pete and comforted him, his molars would fly away this time. Josh still doesn’t plan on getting dental implants at a young age. Additionally, there is no justification for Josh to remain in office without saying anything.

“… Call me if you need me, I’ll wait in the hall.”

That was all he could say.

He waited for a moment, but Chase was still expressionless and unresponsive. Josh had no choice but to turn around and leave the room. With the last glance he could feel that the atmosphere was uncomfortable. Josh was in a bad mood.

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The room was quiet. No one tried to open their mouths first. Grayson, who had just turned his body, kept a smile and only looked at his brother. Of course, Chase didn’t laugh at all.

“What happened to your face? You didn’t get hit by a bodyguard because of your temper, did you?”

“What are you doing here?”

“It is true. What a disappointment Chase, you can’t even fight. I told you to train properly, take some steroids or protein supplements.”

Grayson, who had a muscular and strong body, looked at Chase’s physique that was slimmer than him and sighed.

“It’s good that you don’t have any broken places.”

“Grayson…”

Chase clenched his fist so hard his knuckles scored.

Grayson, who is well aware that his brother’s fists are quite strong, stopped teasing him and changed the subject.

“Time to expel pheromones, right. There’s a party, let’s go.”

“I’m not going.”

“Really?” Grayson narrowed his eyes at the determined answer. “Did I mention that Alex Jr. gave birth last month?”

At that moment, Chase’s face hardened. Grayson kept talking with a smiling face.

“To be exact, I saw the puppy, he’s in love with Alex Jr., but he’s like Alex 1st, and he’s pretty good at it … Oh, you hated dogs, right? Did you like birds? They are useless compared to dogs and have such a peculiar taste.”

Chase didn’t say anything, just looked at him, shaking slightly with a white face. Without even blinking, Grayson added calmly:

“Are you looking for that guy then? Of course you didn’t find him.”

“…”

“Chase.” Grayson’s voice was even sweeter. “If you don’t want it to happen again, you should get your pheromones out.”

The pounding of his heart made Chase’s ears roar. Grayson whispered as he looked at his brother biting his lip and holding his breath.

“So you want to go to the party?”

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Click

Josh automatically raised his head at the sound of the door opening. It was Grayson who came out.

“Oh, you were really waiting!” He said in wonder.

He could see Chase behind Grayson. Josh quickly scanned his entire body, but it seemed like nothing was wrong. Except that his complexion looked particularly pale. Grayson opened his mouth as if he had sensed that Josh would speak.

“Chase will go out with me. You don’t need security, do you?”

At the unexpected comment, Josh looked Chase in the face again, but he ignored it. Josh called him hastily.

“Mr. Miller!”

Chase hesitated and turned around. Seeing him frown, Josh gasped.

“Shall we get the car ready?”

“… It’s okay.”

“Mr. Miller.”

“It’s done! Leave me alone, don’t be loud!”

Chase yelled violently.

Josh could no longer convince him. Chase quickened his pace, turned quickly away, and disappeared from sight.

Like Josh, Grayson looked in the direction Chase had gone and whistled briefly. When Josh looked at him again, Grayson smiled and said insignificantly:

“I’ll just change my clothes and go downstairs. He doesn’t make you feel comfortable, does he?” Josh didn’t answer. Grayson smiled as if he knew everything. “No matter how hard I try, I can’t fix his temper. I’m sorry.”

He said he was sorry, but Josh couldn’t feel any sincerity there. Even Josh felt like he had added a word that seemed to be a masked smile, just because it was time to say it. Josh had nothing to say, he just stared at him silently.

Suddenly Grayson narrowed his eyes, grabbed the back of Josh’s neck and had no time to escape. Huh , he stuck his nose into Josh’s neck and took a deep breath, and Josh left him. Grayson, who had moved his nose back and forth twice, smelling it, finally raised his head.

“What are you? “He asked in a low voice.

Josh for a moment couldn’t find a word to answer. A few seconds later he realized the meaning of the question.

“…Beta.”

He gave a definitive answer.

“Seriously?”

Grayson asked and bowed his head.

There was no way he knew at all, because the pheromone scent was faint and he was taking medication. Josh firmly believed in that, but on the other hand, he fidgeted and looked him as cold as possible, straight in the eye. Grayson moved the hand that held Josh by the back of his neck and grabbed his chin.

“It’s strange.” Grayson frowned for the first time when he had the rudeness to grab a person’s chin and turn their face away. “What kind of radioactivity have Beta groups been affected with these days, why don’t they look like beta?”

Josh shook his hand sharply without saying anything. Grayson exclaimed:

“Ay!”

And smiled.

“I heard from Nathaniel that this time there were Betas, that you are from the East.” He said, “Did you look at the picture? … Wow, Beta with that face. Not a scam? What’s in the east? “

Grayson laughed but Josh didn’t, he just stared at Grayson silently narrowing his eyes.

“Are you sure you’re a Beta?”

“Excuse me.”

Josh tried to get out of the way to avoid a grueling and unnecessary war, but Grayson didn’t approve.

“Wait,” he said, restraining Josh.

Having been forced to stop, he looked at Grayson again as if to ask what he needed, but there was a sudden sweet smell. Grayson’s eyes were tinged with gold. It was the second time he had seen a dominant Alpha’s eye color change. Josh already knew the meaning. Grayson was pouring pheromones. But Josh showed no response.

“I guess so,” he said after pouring useless pheromones like a waterfall, shrugged and laughed.

“No matter how much medicine you take, there’s no way you can’t smell it. No reaction to pheromones…” Grayson stroked his chin thoughtfully. “Unless you’re a dominant Omega …”

The end of the speech made Josh feel sinister fear. When he inadvertently swallowed dry saliva, another voice suddenly interrupted.

“Can’t the dominant Omega be in such a place? They say that it is difficult to see it once in a lifetime.”

When Josh turned his head, Isaac was standing with a disgusted face. Grayson, who followed him and turned his head, laughed.

“Is my brother downstairs?”

Isaac answered bluntly when he immediately changed the subject.

“Yes, he went to the car.”

“Oh thanks.”

He left with a grateful expression that seemed to be completely numb. When Josh saw his back drift away from Isaac’s guidance, he was belatedly horrified.

What would have happened without the brand?

Josh secretly calmed his heart. He was sure he would have caught it. For the first time, he thanked Chase for the brand. Josh wouldn’t have a chance to indulge in pheromones other than this man’s unless another Alpha left a new mark on him. But if Chase had poured pheromones on him, his jealousy would have appeared. His spine shook. Josh’s hand began to tremble, that trembling spread through his entire body.

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After calming down, Josh made his way to the monitoring room and soon found Mark. Mark, who at a glance realized that his condition was not good, asked suspiciously:

“What’s going on? Did something happen to you with that guy who came before? Isaac said something strange.”

“What do you mean strange?”

Mark responded to Josh in a quick tone of voice.

“I heard he played a strange trick on you. What happens if you pour pheromones into a Beta? What happens if you mutate? After all, he is a dominant Alpha …”

He shook his head, clicked his tongue. Josh after a moment opened his mouth.

“Have they gone out yet? Both of them?”

“Yeah, it’s been a while,” Mark said casually. “You know where they have gone, right? To an orgy party.”

Of course. But what Josh was curious about was something else.

“What about security?”

Mark casually repeated Grayson’s words.

“Brother says it’s okay, and C says we don’t have to come. So what can I do? I sent him a location tracker.”

“Oh…”

Josh sighed deeply.

They will blame us again if he has an accident .

Suddenly it occurred to him that Chase was deliberately causing them trouble. If bullying others was a hobby, he was good at it. Chase would be enough … but Grayson.

Josh didn’t know if he should be relieved or not, but a part of him was anxious. Chase’s brother, whom he saw for the first time, had such a dark aura and he didn’t think he wanted to hide it from the rest. But Chase seemed to hate as many people as there were stars in the universe, but this man was clearly the one Chase hated the most.

But why did you follow him so gently?

As terrified as a rabbit facing an anaconda. Chase Miller was a rabbit. Mark said to Josh, who was momentarily shocked.

“The problem is when he gets back, I hope he feels better.”

During Mark’s long sigh, Josh didn’t say anything either.

Usually after sex you are more likely to feel better, but with Chase you never know what will happen. Josh just wished the man was the same as ever. Josh had been told that if an Alpha is tagged, that Alpha’s pheromones would stabilize and the risk of pheromones affecting him would be reduced, but the person tagging him should continue to help. At least you have to stay by his side and give him psychological stability.

Will there be someone who would dare to engrave a brand on Chase?

Josh shook his head to try to clear his thoughts. No matter how much I think about it, it is impossible.

Yeah, Chase is a good guy, so I don’t think he’s doing anything wrong.

Suddenly, Grayson’s smiling face appeared in his head and in a low voice he whispered:

What the hell happened at that party, Josh?

Suddenly goose bumps broke out on Josh’s back.

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It was past midnight when Chase returned. The anxious security team waited in anticipation when they saw their pager heading for the mansion. Unlike when he left, Chase returned in a heavy sedan.

“Sr. Miller!”

As soon as the sedan pulled up to the front door of the mansion, Mark hastily opened the car door and called out to him. At the same time, the scent of pheromones reached Josh from far away.

Josh unknowingly chewed the candy in his mouth. Looking over the open car door, Chase was completely drunk and out of his mind. He muttered something from time to time without even opening his eyes. An expressionless man who rose from the driver’s seat confirmed the fact.

“He’s been taking a lot of medication at the party, so he’s almost unconscious. He will wake up after a few days of sleep.”

“What medicine did he take? … It won’t harm his body, right?” He asked carefully, and they all looked at him.

Josh added hastily:

“If you have a problem, we should call 911 immediately.”

Mark clicked his tongue and the man who led Chase opened his mouth.

“There is no such thing as a problem. As you know, Alpha dominant does not happen to be affected by medicine or alcohol … He has an overdose, but he will be fine. It does this every time. I heard he usually takes a lot of medications.”

Then he got in the car and drove off.

People rushed to carry Chase to his room. Josh did the same too. There was fresh air in Chase’s bedroom. Josh hesitated, like he was in a room no one was using. There was nothing on the wall where Warhol’s painting used to hang. All the fancy decorations were gone, and all he had was a bed and a side table. Josh knew better than anyone how all things disappeared.

Huh, huh.

Mark put Chase on the bed and straightened his back. Isaac and Seth settled Chase.

The scent of pheromones vibrated throughout his body. Josh felt an unusual difference there. The scent of Chase and the scent of other dominant Alphas mixed. But Josh was the only one who felt the difference.

“There must have been a lot of Dominant Alphas at the party,” Mark replied casually as he walked away. “Well I’m sure. Because it was an orgy party.”

“Smells terrible,” Isaac muttered to himself and shook his head. Seth rubbed his temples too, his head hurt.

Everyone complained that they had been buried with too many pheromones, but no one really knew how to distinguish the smells. Only Josh distinguished Chase’s scent from the scent of others.

Maybe it’s the brand …?

Josh casually stroked his headphone-covered earlobe. They all came around the bed and looked at Chase’s body. The shirt was wrinkled and he didn’t even button it. It was fortunate that he wore his pants correctly. Josh wanted to brush his blonde hair with his fingers. Fortunately, Mark opened his mouth before his hands moved on impulse.

“Are we leaving?”

They all moved at the signal. Josh, who entered last, was the last to leave. Before leaving he looked back at the end, Chase.

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A couple of hours passed after he felt his strange condition. Josh, who took turns looking at the CCTV monitors that were seen throughout the mansion, suddenly hesitated to see Chase’s room. Chase still didn’t seem to have regained consciousness. It is clear that he was drugged, but despite that, he seemed to be somewhat uncomfortable. It was unusual to see him tossing and turning in bed. Josh hesitated for a moment. There is nothing I can do for him in that condition. Also, he was probably expelling pheromones, Josh knew what was going to happen when he rushed up to him.

It would be worse even if you took the drug. It is foolish of you to jump into obvious danger. Josh looked carefully at the screen and for a moment fell into agony.

How can an adult have such bad dreams? It will be fine soon.

But when he saw Chase crouching down and rocking on the bed in agony, Josh remembered his boy even when he had nightmares and cries.

“Papa”

Josh tapped the armrests with his fingers. Chase on the monitor was dying on the bed. He could see how quickly his condition was deteriorating. He realized immediately. There was a groan coming from his throat. There was no more strength to resist.

Moron! Josh ran in a hurry, cursing himself.

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” …!”

Even before entering he could feel himself in the hallway full of pheromones, Josh adjusted the mask once more while feeling a strong dizziness. The mask blocked 98% of the pheromones, but there was still 2% left that seemed to affect him. Josh opened the door trying to ignore the intoxicating fragrance.

The pheromones, which had been accumulated in the room with him, immediately spilled out. Josh hesitated for a moment and staggered back. It took him time to recover. It took courage to enter the room with all his heart. Chase lay on the bed like before. However, the sheet was very wrinkled and one corner was sticking out of the mattress. On top of that, some buttons on his shirt were undone and others had flown off, revealing his body. Josh couldn’t understand why he was still wearing it.

“…”

Chase muttered something, shook himself, and spun again. With him, his face turned to Josh, and he contracted.

“Ah.”

Josh sighs unconsciously.

His face, breathing hard and sweating cold, was as beautiful as an angel and so agitated. The image of Chase helpless in bed unexpectedly aroused sadism. Josh was embarrassed to feel this way. He thought it was ridiculous to think of doing that with Chase Miller, but he couldn’t deny his feelings. Josh was ashamed of guilt.

“Ah …”

Chase’s breathing was exceptionally strong.

Josh’s breath became harsh with imagination too, his body temperature rising. In an instant, the interior began to throb and get wet. If Josh’s reason had disappeared by just one percent more, he probably would have climbed on top of him. But Josh desperately endured his wishes. This was not the time, and it was not the place. Somehow he had to wake up Chase who seemed to be wandering in a nightmare, the proof was his lips that moved trying to murmur something. Oh those damn lips. Josh couldn’t think. He slapped his cheek before going crazy.

“Oh fuck!”

Josh ended up cursing.

Are you an idiot? Josh walked over to the bed and rubbed his prickly cheeks. Chase mumbled something again, his face twisted. Every time he breathed in, the hard muscles in his chest rose and fell sharply. Josh swallowed a dry cough.

“Mr. Miller, wake up. Mr. Miller.”

He cautiously grabbed him by the shoulder and shook him slightly, but he showed no signs of waking up.

Dominant Alphas are unaffected by alcohol or medicine, but Josh wondered how long he would be like this. He had been a bodyguard for another celebrity, but he had never seen someone take so many medications. If ordinary people had consumed this same amount, they would no longer be in this world.

“That … uh …”

Chase muttered something.

You’re dreaming? Josh bowed his head.

“No … Stop … Please …”

Josh panicked at that moment. What did I hear? He can’t believe Chase Miller said that. Am I hearing wrong? Still embarrassed, he kept hearing Chase mutter:

“Please I’m sorry. It’s my fault … I’ll do what they tell me, I’ll do whatever. Please…”

He was having nightmares. Whatever it was, it must have been a terrible dream. But that was not the end. In a cold sweat, Chase kept begging.

“Forgive me I’m sorry. Help me, don’t do this to me. Stop, Nathaniel, Stacey … Please help me. Stop, please, no, please …!”

“Mr. Miller!”

Josh called him urgently.

He thought that he should wake up Chase quickly, even if he had to hit him to achieve it …

It was then that Chase yelled:

“Please get rid of that dog …!”

“Chase, open your eyes!”

Josh screams.

He had to get him out of the nightmare right now. He had to do anything to achieve it. When he raised his hand, Josh wondered if it was okay to punch him in the face, Chase suddenly opened his eyes. His eyes, which were usually purple, had turned gold. Josh had seen those eyes before, it was the day he got pregnant with Pete. He poured pheromones all over his body and sprayed them deep inside him. As soon as he remembered, Josh almost fell due to the burning inside his body.

The next moment, a worrying situation occurred. Chase got up unexpectedly and rolled onto him.

“…!”

Not ready for a sudden attack, Josh was crushed to the ground by Chase. Chase climbed on top of him without interruption and removed his mask. The lips overlapped before any sound came out of Josh’s mouth.

He is beside himself.

Josh knew it. At the time Chase was completely insane. He was sure he wouldn’t remember anything in the morning. As if it were that day. So how will you know if you don’t try? The devil seemed to whisper into Josh’s ear. He wanted to hug that man at that moment and accept him into his body, so he was overwhelmed. He could sell his soul, if only he could have sex with Chase right then and there. No, he even thought his soul was too cheap.

Oh, if I could do it now!

But one of those experiences was enough. Josh knew better than anyone what the result of a single temptation was. Besides, it was with the same person, no matter how stupid he was. Meanwhile, Josh adjusted his shirt and groped his hands over Chase’s body to try to push him away, turned his head to avoid the overlapping lips, pushed his shoulder as hard as he could and hit his face with his other hand. There was a thud. With that he prayed that Chase would come to himself.

“React, Mr. Miller !!”

Josh screamed as loud as he could. If he didn’t stop him like that, he would have to hit him again. Josh looked at the ground to avoid feeling threatened by Chase. Not having enough confidence to see his face and verify if that scream worked, Chase returned to superimpose his lips against his.

Oh, it ‘s dangerous.

He felt like he could hear a siren in his head, but the sound was very faint. When their lips were violently engaged, Josh abandoned all efforts to contain him. He didn’t know what was going to happen, that scent was driving him crazy. He hugged his neck and blended his tongue deeply. Josh was out of breath from the wild kiss. Stunned, he realized that it had been a long time since he’d had that kind of kiss.

When was his last kiss?

After looking back over the past few years, he had quit dating to devote full time to raising Pete, he had quickly given up. Yes, in fact, the kisses with this man were the last.

Does it matters?

When Chase jerked up his shirt and felt bare skin, Josh completely emptied his mind. He also wanted this man to touch him.

I want you to come inside me and make a mess like you did before.

Fill me up! Oh, ejaculate inside me!

Josh didn’t know if he was spitting it out or just thinking it. He only cared about the current kiss. Chase’s knee came between his legs and spread out into Josh’s crotch. He felt his butt get soaked. In the dark he groped his body frantically. A short cry came from Josh’s body as Chase violently bit his lips.

Chase’s erection felt down. Josh also knew that the frontal brush was intentional and that the moment was yet to come. It was when fear and anticipation of the thick penis entering him tore through his head.

The memory of that day suddenly crossed his mind and made Josh hesitate. If Chase got inside him again, Josh already knew the consequences.

He is going to get pregnant.

Surprisingly, fear and excitement crossed at the same time. Josh, who hesitated for a moment, soon gave up on everything. It doesn’t matter what the result is.

Can we now compare it to pleasure?

Josh could never give up. He closed his eyes and hugged him tightly. The kiss continued until he encouraged Chase to rub against him. But when Josh turned to remove his pants, Chase unexpectedly calmed down. Puzzled, Josh opened his eyes and parted his lips.

“Chase?”

He knocked carefully and soon shook Chase’s head resting on his shoulder.

He later realized that Chase had lost consciousness again. Josh was embarrassed and blinked.

Are you saying you sleep alone, after you did this to me?

“Ah.”

Good for you, you almost got pregnant again. He tried to comfort himself in some way, but could not calm his anger. Finally, he controlled his strength and hit Chase on the head. Sadly, Chase didn’t wake up. Josh looked at him stunned for a moment.

“… Hey.”

Josh barely reacted and escaped underneath. Holding Chase from behind who was still lying on the floor, he dragged him to the bed and quickly left the room to the bathroom connected to the monitor room to relax, he was excited .

Fuck Fuck Fuck Chase Miller!

Looking frantically down, he hurled endless curses at the man who had fallen asleep at a time of great importance. The problem was, just thinking about him made his aroused cock get harder in his hands. That made Josh even angrier. After regular and mechanical masturbation, he cleaned areas exposed to pheromones such as his face and arms as urgently as possible at the sink. He sat down, in low spirits, but still had work to do. He had to delete the record. Josh turned back the clock and erased part of the recording from that room. No one would notice the cut. Since no accident or special event happened. Then he watched until dawn, but luckily Chase seemed to have no more nightmares. As a result of this, there was no murmuring or shaking. Looking at him, Josh was just bitter.

What the hell was that all about?

The biggest problem was that he got carried away again. He hadn’t even realized it was like that. It was all due to the pheromones and now he had already expelled them. Josh also knew that he meant nothing to Chase.

But what if he really loved me? This relationship is hopeless. I am nothing to that man.

The sun was rising in the distance as he repeatedly sighed and rubbed his tired eyes. It was a couple of hours later that Josh asked Mark to give him a vacation.